Sneaking and creeping til’ we get ourselves alone under the sheets to start freaking. There’s no denying it and everyone knows we’re sleeping. Together is to be apart. Lonely end to a lonely start. But when we are together all we make is art, music flows from our bodies right on through our souls. I always want to tell him no, but I always don’t. We lie there laughing, breathing hard and gasping. Perfection that we made. You made me your love slave. I didn’t even stop it, for you I always cave. I’m afraid leaving you will end my days, but I know to be better is to be without you. Thinking into the future I am always okay without you. My days are long and meaningful without you. I come back down to the present and all I see is your face. It marks me like the burning flames of desire deep down inside of me. All I wanna say is your name. Over and over. Matched with your thrusting, something deep within me is erupting. I cry because you fill me so deep inside. Eye to eye, chest to chest, love to love, thigh to thigh. Inside of me you come, no hesitations, you’re the one. You fall on me, grab my face, kiss my mouth, you know your place. I love you so. How? I do not know. Your passionate breaths of fury on my neck make me weak and sad, for you are the only one that me, ever really had. I hate you. My heart was guarded when I first met you, then I let you in and away you took it. I should have known from the start that you would hurt my heart. After all the time that has passed I have amassed a Dirty mass on that heart that fails it to restart. Whenever I come down, whenever you come up, we sneak and creep until you find your hidden freak, under my mask of a happy face. I love you and I always will. I want you more but this will continue until that bitter day when the mass grows too large and cancerous. Too much for me to take. Once again my unguarded, vulnerable heart will fall, shatter and break. I must awake.
Only in America, you shoot a child, point blank, in the chest and walk away a free and innocent man. Only in America can a presidential candidate silence a D.U.I., then subsequently rule the free world. Only in America can a man murder an innocent freedom fighter for procuring a speech that our young children read today as “history”. Only in America can a 24 y/o black female student be suspicious. Only in America can a black man be laid to rest with no justice for himself or his family. Only in America can that be considered “LAW”. Only in America can a white man walk on any street without being assumed a criminal. Only in America shall a black man be profiled, and judged to the extent of his death. Only in America be there no justice for Trayvon Martin. Only in America be thee no justice for THE Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Only in America be there no justice for me. Only in America be there no justice for you. Only in America, shall we live in fear. Only in America we live with fear.